How about that last falling star..?

2011-10-30T01:33:00.000-07:00

Been long since i last updated. Real long.

I really really really wanna shout out as loud as i can. Don't really know how much longer i can take this shit that is NS.

It didn't really bother me/affect me at all during the first few days, but now that it's gonna be 2 months since i enlisted, everything is catching up to me. I feel so damn suffocated.

Gotta book-in later at night..putting on the green uniform just disgusts me to no end now. All that you wear during the 5 and a half days in camp is nothing but green and black, it's a kind of mental torture in a way. I hate it.

2011-06-21T11:06:00.001-07:00

And just like that, you're out of my sight..

I still don't wanna let go. Yeah, i'm stupid to hold on but it's worth being stupid if it's worth being stupid. LOL.

It's like entering a lucky draw even if there's no prizes to be won. I guess i think i still have that little hope, thinking that even if it's a 0.1%, it's not a 0%.

Things are gonna be just..bad..

Short update for the win lol \m/

2011-06-13T16:08:00.000-07:00

Yo.

Been long..

Short update though.

It'll happen. It'll most definitely happen. I'm not exactly prepared for the consequences..and i never will be. But, if not now, then when will it be..?

2011-05-04T14:13:00.000-07:00

Hey..

The performance was..kinda unsatisfactory for me. Don't know bout the others though, but gotta practice more for street fest! (If we do get pass the auditions.)

Other than that, have been watching MLB for the past 2 days..at weird timings..

Nothing for now, don't really feel like updating about anything else..will update another time.

2011-04-29T11:33:00.001-07:00

Yo. No more doubts and i'm back. With some drama. And a long update. At the most inappropriate time.
*Perhaps you know, and i always thought that you know*
I looked back, and i smiled. Memories no matter how sour always turn sweet after a few years, and if you did everything you could you would've no regrets.
*Maybe history's repeating itself?*
The knots are finally untangled after so long. After decades of pondering, ok maybe a month or so, i have finally made a decision. A decision that's not easy for anyone to make (i'm not bragging about this haha.), a promise to myself that i know i will break. It's really not easy at all, i just don't know how much more i can take. The rhyming is not deliberate..
*I'm so so so tempted.*
But anyways,
*Is it really fine to be selfish?*
I realized after all these pondering that as a guy, it's really selfish to confess your feelings to someone when you kinda know it's not gonna work out. Though you'll never know if you never try, the other party will always be hurt in some ways or another after thy confession. (lol) Well it's not exactly true, what i said, but in some cases, these things do happen..
*I really want to be.*
Scrape that.
*But when i think of the consequences..*
Never easy to move on..life itself is never easy..no matter how much you try to have fun, when you're all alone in your room, you're always a different person. Ahhhhhh this is so frustrating. It doesn't really matter how much thinking you've put into something, you'll most likely change your decision at the last moment. This is one heck of a rollercoaster ride i'm on, and whether i fall off or not depends on whether i wanna hold on -.- I'm typing so much useless text now that i feel like backspacing everything..but no i'm still kinda beating about the bush.
*Makes me wonder.*
But no, everything's good as it is..besides, i've been thinking, if love is just a word until you prove it, how do you prove your love to someone? Haha to me love is a self sacrifice.
*Is my selfishness..*
Anyways, Jam for Japan gig coming up at 6.30pm later! Hyakka Ryouran will hopefully do their best to give a performance decent enough to not ruin the musical appetites of the audiences, considering they're the 2nd bands up. It's not just their performance, but other bands' too! Ganbarimasu! I should really go to sleep now but i wonder if i've left anything out...will update once i remember..
*Really worth it?*

2011-03-18T12:01:00.000-07:00

This is gonna be the last blog post of this blog till things are resolved within myself.

I guess i won't be saying anything else. What i wanna say is, i love you and and i always will. That's it. I really don't know what i can do anymore.

Tell me if i'm a jerk, tell me if i'm unworthy of anything at all. I won't know if you don't tell me, and i wanna know what you think of me. I wanna know how i am through your eyes. I wanna know if i'm just another acquintance. I wanna know everything about myself through you. Please, i beg you, tell me. Just tell me. I don't care how.

Until then, this is goodbye..

2011-03-18T08:10:00.000-07:00

I think, that in your eyes, i am one and the same with others.

Ah whatever. I don't wanna type anymore. It's the same few things over and over and over and over and over.....this is gonna be the last post about all these. I don't wanna leave a bad impression that i'm overreacting and being dramatic and seeking attention. Not that i care how others think, but i do care about how you think of me..

This is all so pointless.

2011-03-16T08:45:00.000-07:00

When i talk, i feel soooo parasitic. I don't know what to do.

And also, one day when you finally come to know my feelings for you, what would change?

All that i've done in the past would be because i love you.
All that i'm doing now is because i love you.
And all that i'm gonna do is because i love you.

Maybe it's true, but it's not really all of the things. Being friends come before being lovers right? I don't wanna argue, it makes no sense.

All that you know and all that you don't. Is it really worth changing everything just for one selfish question which would never ever have a positive answer? I really don't know, i really wanna know..

It's weird for me to talk about all these but like i said, i really need some place to vent everything out.

I don't wanna be called a dramatic person, but it's really how i'm feeling right now. I can't use any other way to say it, i don't care if you call me a dramatic person, not all of the people i know will see this anyway, but i really don't care.

Life isn't fair anyways. The one who don't needs it will get it. That's the way things work. So damn unfair..

It's hard for your world to not revolve around love when you're in love, no matter how hard you try to push it away it keeps coming back...

2011-03-14T14:37:00.001-07:00

Ok maybe the previous post is weird.

Anyway i'm feeling pretty drowsy now, who knows what kinda weird stuff i'll type out in this daze, but i don't really care already..

But yeah, i'm giving myself 2 months time to prepare myself metally for what that is to come. I know that this preparation is gonna be useless, and all that has taken so long to stabalize will once again collapse. I really wonder if this is really worth it.

It's pretty rare that i'm touching on this. I just, finally need an outlet where i can ease myself of all that i've been holding back for quite awhile. I really don't know what to do. I just wanna shout everything out but i can't.

But nevertheless, i'm determined to hold on even if it means that my soul will burn and that i will feel the pain. Been doing it for awhile, i don't think it'll matter if i hang on for the rest of my life. I just hope things don't change after everything..

Don't mind the post, please forget everything..

2011-03-12T10:49:00.001-08:00

You said it doesn't make a difference.

You know, it's really different. LOL. I can't really put it into words but it just feels so different. I'm sorry i can't really say anything else but it's really really different. Kinda empty i guess.

But anyways i don't know how many times i've said it but i'm gonna say it again. Stay safe! I'll be saving my 11:11 for that.

Now to survive 5 weeks of feeling emptiness..haha :)

2011-03-08T09:24:00.000-08:00

Yo..

It's been long since i updated.

Yeah.

So, life has just been guitar and anime! Boring but it's sort of fulfilling i guess..i'm currently watching Magic Knight Rayearth! It was one of my favorite animes when i was young, and this is the only anime that made me feel nostalgic. The 2nd ending theme is NICE, seriously. Go listen to it! It's called Yasashiku Dakasete. I can repeat this song till kingdom come.

Oh yeah, one of the biggest acheivement in my life happened 2 days ago. I figured out the entire song (Yasashiku Dakasete) by ear. This is NOT the 1st time i'm trying to figure out a song by ear. This IS the 1st time i actually had the patience to finish everything. I'm a perfectionist at these kinda stuff, my previous 'projects' failed cause i couldn't really hear some parts, and i just abandoned everything. So yeah, acheivement unlocked (Y)

lalala.

Hm, the band's kinda going well i guess. We started writing originals! Since...just now. LOL. Only the intro is done, but well, i'm sure it'll be finished in a few weeks time :)

Epic abrupt end.

2011-02-13T10:56:00.000-08:00

This shouldn't be how i'm feeling. I thought i already looked past all of it..
I'm feeling downright crappy..
I'm not concentrating enough. I keep losing my focus every now and then. It feels so bad. I hate this feeling. I hate jealousy. Not because of valentine's, of course.

Well anyways happy valentine's day. Hope you guys get tonnes of chocolates, obligation or not. Drink more water so you won't get sore throat after today :) Or better, keep gurgling warm salt water after each choco you swallow..joking.

And in a few months time i'm gonna be enlisted, i'm not sure when but i'm sure it'll be within this year. I hope i'll get everything settled by then, tie up all the loose ends and all, in case i don't get a chance to do it when/after i enlist.

Well nothing much to update about.

Bye.

2011-02-10T10:37:00.001-08:00

Someone's sleeping soundly right now :)

And i just realized it's gonna be valentine's day soon.

This year's valentine's will be really different for me :D

It's the first year that i'm gonna be spending valentine's as a non-student. There won't be any red cross event too. Which means it's just another ordinary day for me. Makes no difference to those who don't have someone to be with, valentine's day. Oh well. Nothing to worry about :)

The song i'm playing this sat is Cassis, by Gazette. Again. LOL. It's a rather irritating song to learn, but it actually sounds decent.

I've been watching X Japan's live shows on youtube again. ALL of them are so epic. Their fast songs are scarily epic, their ballads are pleasant. There's this song called X which is like their band anthem. Go watch the live shows, especially the 1993, the last live, and the hide memorial summit ones, and you'll have a new definition of PURE AWESOMENESS. Totally inspiring. We are X!

It's so hard to write a nice song! I've had many attempts but i keep going off key, and end up throwing the entire idea away. The vocal lines are so hard to conceive............

Bye.

*Abrupt end ftw :)*

2011-02-09T04:26:00.001-08:00

Ok the previous post is just ranting. Don't need to read..

I feel so drained.

2011-02-09T02:09:00.000-08:00

Hi all.

I hate posers.

I hate dramatic people.

I hate it when people posts some Truth-of-Life style posts (E.G, life sucks, love sucks, this sucks, that sucks, fml (especially this -.-), this happens because that happens, etc etc) and they act like, "Oh yeah, you can relate to my post. I'm the most understanding person in your friend/contact list. Worship me.". It's ok to post things that you are going through! What's the difference? DON'T keep posting it! Don't spam it. Better yet, don't post it. YES, we know life sucks, we know love sucks, we know you like to f your life, but please, don't keep reminding us of it. It might look cool that you got a "Love sucks. Fml." on your facebook wall or whatever, but to me it's really just showing off. Seeking attention. Now do note that i'm not picking on any single person. I'm talking about people on the internet in general. Yeah, the internet makes people stupid.

I hate people who PRETEND to be sad to get attention. It's obvious when you're really sad, humans ain't stupid enough to believe "I'm tired of living. Fml". Cause we know, you're just saying it. How about people who really are tired of living? Because of these attention seekers we fail to realize how true such a sentence can be. Then there're those where they, "Oh i'm so gonna get drunk and drown all my sorrows" type. Works in the movies, in real life it just makes you look really really stupid. There's also the (something)-is-my-life type. Attention seeking at it's finest, they just want to have something in common with everyone or someone they know. Chances are, for most people (especially singaporeans), whatever thing that is their life, their passion for it will die down in mere seconds.

I hate justin bieber. Needs no explanation, i just hate him.

I hate pop and electronica or anything that's really fake. They sound so similar nowadays anyways. Pop was ok say, a few years back. That's because the singers really have a good voice, they really have a passion for singing, they really SING. Now with autotuners, even the world's worst singer can become a pop star. I don't like electronic music more than pop. Pop used to be decent. Electronica was never decent. Random idiots who finds a freeware that makes simple beats and tunes could release an electronic type of garbage album. Music is all about computers now, which makes rock bands and metal bands the only ones producing music through skills that they have honed for years and years. Not some overnight sitting in front of your computer shit. lol.

I hate what i hate. Talk more later. Eat now.

2011-02-06T13:29:00.000-08:00

She was the perfect girl anyone could've ever dreamed of. She's beautiful, and she has a wonderful smile (thinking about it makes me regret not sleeping longer. Thanks to my mother who called and woke me up -.-), but anyone who's sane enough would know that such a girl could never ever exist in real life. No one in this world is THAT perfect. We love who we love only because we learn to love their flaws along with their perfections, therefore your soulmate is always perfect in your eyes. Yup, i saw her in my dreams, but only in my dreams does she exist. And no, i still love the one i love, even if the girl in my dreams really do exist. (The girl in my dreams, makes a good song title :D) That's because, although she's really perfection, the one i love is BEYOND perfection in my eyes. I mean it. Mushy or cheesy or disgusting whatever you call it, that's the only way i can phrase it.

Back to topic! There's no topic but i'm gonna make one since i don't wanna just post about the above. Makes me feel like i'm being dramatic like most of the people on the internet.

CNY was..boring. As usual. But the one thing that shocked me the most this year was the amount of red packet money. I was expecting it to be below 200, and barely over a 100..it turned out to be 404 (OMFLZCZXCZXCZXCZXCZXC couldn't even described how OML i was when i found out). With 404, i'm gonna top it up abit and BUY A secondhand SEVEN STRING GUITAR! That's way cool. I can't wait shopping for it.

Ok so you guys might be thinking, BUY SO MANY GUITARS WASTE MONEY WHEN YOU'VE ALREADY 3 GUITARS AND A BASS. Nope, it's all different, the ones i bought.

My first was a lousy SX strat copy copy. No typos there. SX is a spain guitar company, and the original was a SX Stratocaster Copy. The one i got was a cheap one, it's a china copy of the copy. Talk about piracy lol. 21 frets (IT'S NOT EVEN 22!) with unknown body and neck and fretboard wood, and a standard strat bridge which allows the use of the whammy bar/tremolo bar, but you can't pull it up.

The next was a 24 fret TGM Bass. Sounds ok, probably needs a bit of set up, but i'm not really into basses YET, so i just play it as it is for now.

3rd we have the expensive Ibanez S4570-F. It's a prestige, which is like the higher end of Ibanez guitars. Thanks to my dad who got it for me. Here's what's really important. It's 24 frets with a mahogany body, maply neck and rosewood fretboard if i'm not wrong, and it has a edge zero bridge i think. Not sure if it's edge zero or edge III or whatever, but it's a floyd rose bridge, and unlike the strat's bridge on the SX, you can either pull up or push down to tighten the string tension or loosen it. Meaning the note being played will change in pitch.

Lastly, but not for long, would be the Epiphone SG G-400. 22 frets with a stopbar tail piece and a tune-o-matic for the bridge. It has no whammy bar (or tremolo bar) slot, which means wacky whammy stuff can't be done on that guitar. The frets are also kinda thinner, and it has a shorter scale, which means the string that's vibrating when strummed. It's a totally different feel from the Ibanez. I use this for my band :)

The main difference is their bridge! The secondary difference is the scale length of the guitar, which, when you play, will give a totally different feel to it. The neck's thickness is also different, the tones are different too. So they're all guitars, but they're different :)

Now, the 7-string that i'm looking to buy, should have 24 frets and a floyd rose bridge, coil splitting, which means it probably is a HH or a HSH (if there are reasonable cheap) (HH= Humbucker + Humbucker, HSH = Humbucker + Single coil + Humbucker, referring to the pickups), hopefuly mahogany body with rosewood fretboard (i'm not that picky about the wood), and that's it. I wanna get this because there's an extra low B string.

There is an 8 string too, but i'm not gonna buy that ever because it just looks ridiculous.

There's also 12 string guitars, i might get that when i become really really pro. It's more for rhythmic sections to make the sections sound nicer with the added harmonics and all i think. Not sure.

Well i think i'm really off topic, and i'm out of time. Time to bath. Update next time :)

2011-01-29T11:29:00.000-08:00

269th post. lol.

So yeah, life's been pretty..normal. My normal = less eventful than an average person's life. Guitar, anime, guitar, anime, guitar, anime x 100000000000000000000000000000000.

I don't know what to say. I've too many things on my mind and none of them, i can spill out. Absolutely nothing. lol. Secrets will always remain a secret. I can't tell anyone and i'm sorry about that. Ignorance is bliss really..

I just finished bathing, i'm kinda tired but i'm waiting for my hair to dry. In the meantime i'm eating tuna subway (Y).

Anyways being kinda inactive is quite tiring sometimes. If someone were to switch bodies with me for a day, their soul or spirit or whatever, will wail like there's no tomorrow. Or you might wanna say wail till kingdom come whatever. But i don't know maybe if i switched bodies with a girl while she's having her period maybe i'll wail harder or something. If only there's a function to temporarily switch bodies, it'll be so easy for people to really understand each other. But then again if there's such technology it's gonna cost some 20 bill gate's 20 lifetime's earnings for a single switch, totally not worth it. I think the only time where such an amount will appear in someone's bank will be when there's a glitch or when there's a baby smashing the keyboard while some dude hacked into the bank account to edit the balance. Then your account balance will be like:

Account Balance: $h1038210=i23vu8hi21l[92r3q2r3u2

lol.

Well since there's so much i can't say, i'll just end it here for now. Maybe awhile later i will be able to tell the world my secrets, who knows. Or maybe it'll just die with me or something.

2011-01-26T08:10:00.000-08:00

Yo.

You know how i feel now, like a drug addict. Yeah. Drug addict.

I feel so lifeless, tired, sleepy, whatever you call it, while coughing every once in a while, and totally absorbed into practicing guitar. Me going out to take a pack of milk tea can easily be a scene for some movie about drug addicts or something like that. lol.

WELL, anyways. Been practicing HARD for 1/3 Junjou na Kanjou! It's a new song added for this sat's jamming. It's one of the ending theme for Samurai X, or Rurouni Kenshin. Although suprisingly, i have not yet listened to the actual version. All i've been practicing to is the so called 'midi' version. Gotta take a listen to the real thing soon, after i finish learning everything. :P Oh and this song is damn irritating. The guitar parts, have extremely weird, or maybe you can call it unorthodox (not sure about the spelling) timing and rhythm. Like really really weird. So weird that it sounds weird, and not so nice. Maybe it'll sound better when all the parts are played i won't know. Not yet at least. Oh and the guitar parts are damn annoying also. The solo's so-so. Average at best.

Haha and as for Sailor Moon, i've reduced the no. of episodes i watch each day. Partly because the video keeps going out of sync, and i can't take videos that are out of sync. Dai kirai desu. The new animes of 2011 is really cool too! I'm not sure if i've talked about it, i don't wanna check my posts. Rio Rainbow gate is good, alot of fan service. Onii chan no Koto (shortened form) is really good too, weird censorship fanservice. It's about a girl who likes to tease her brother, but she found out that they're not blood related blah blah blah. Kore wa Zombie desu ka? is nice too, it's a cool storyline. Then there's Dragon Crisis! which is not so bad, it's kinda outright harem, but it's kinda cool. Then there's Freezing, which, i think is really good. Kinda complicated to explain, go watch it. But if you're against seeing erm, uncensored boobs, stay away. Infinite Stratos, or IS, is an obvious harem style anime. A guy enrolling into an all girls school to learn how to operate IS, which is like a machine that only girls can operate. Complicated to explain, go watch it. Beelzebub is one of the non-fanservice anime out for now (althought Hildegarde is really really pretty. SHE HAS HER FRINGE COVERING HER EYEEEEEEE!) It's about a baby who is a demon lord, and please go watch it. I'm kinda lazy to explain. Then there's Mahou Shoujo Madoka, which is pretty decent, nothing else for me to say. There's also Level E, which is a non fanservice anime too. About aliens on earth, one of the funnier animes. Gosick is really really nice. One of my favorites. About a detective which is a cute lil' girl. lol. Yumekui Merry is about a girl name Merry Nightmare, who is from the dream world, and is stuck in reality. She's trying to go back to the dream world and blah blah blah. A pretty decent one. There's also Hourou Musukou. This one's really good. It's about a guy who wants to be a girl. Erm, some gender issues or something. Worth a watch. And i think lastly we have Fractale. Pretty decent, nothing much to say though. Alrighty i guess that's all for animes up till now.

OH and please, if you guys don't mind nudity and a bit of gore (just a little), GO WATCH MNEMOSYNE (I think there's another name for it, it can also be known as Rin -Daughters of Mnemosyne-). It's 45 min per episodes, and there's 6. It's about people who are immortal. Just watch it. Highly reccommended. Oh the OP is one of the best i've heard too. It's called Alsatia (or Cause Disarray) by Galneryus. It's really good.

CNY is coming, my to-buy-list for this month is going to fail soon. Real soon, but whatever. Bye for now.

:P

2011-01-17T10:31:00.000-08:00

It's high time i updated.

Alright first thing's first. I was reminded of the 'Concrete-encased high school girl murder' case, or the murder of Junko Furuta, by a song called Taion by the GazettE. Ok based on this, i really would suggest not reading as it will probably spoil your mood.

It's not that i'll get affected by these kinda things, but i'm really troubled by the fact that guys can be total f-tards when it comes to their own pleasure. A one man rape is actually bad enough, but 4 guys were in it together, over 44 days. The worst part? She was their plaything for 44 days, and she was 16. I really mean it when i said 'plaything'. The 4 guys did not treat her as a human being at all, she was brutally tortured (As in, being beat with metal rods and golf clubs, inserting light bulbs and stuff into her vagina, making her eat cockroachs, drink her own urine, setting off fireworks in her anus, forced her to masturbate, cut her nipples with pliers, dropped dumbbells onto her stomach and burning her with lighters and cigarattes, and who knows what kinda shit that was not reported), and there was even once where she took an hour just to crawl to the bathroom. Then one fine day one of the assholes lost in a mahjong game, and used that as an excuse to beat her up and pour lighter fluids on her to set her on fire. She didn't die because of that, but died of shock later. They hid her corpse in a 55 gallon drum filled with cement. (There is no vulgarity in this world that i could use against 4 guys raping and torturing a girl.) It was also reported that 'possibly a hundred different people' knew about her being imprisoned at the house. F.

They were obviously arrested, but if you're thinking that it's only natural that they get the death sentence, wrong. They were imprisoned, not a lifetime, the longest sentence was 20 years. They are already out of prison since at least 5 years ago. Just because they plead guilty they were spared of the death sentence. How in the name of f is that even possible.

If i were rich, i'll put bounty on their heads. I'm serious. I don't mind gore and torture and stuff, in fact i can tell you that i like gory stuff. But hey, no matter what sort of unholy stuff i can think up for a person to torture another, i would never ever have 4 guys doing shit to just 1 girl. What i'm really disturbed about is how unfair it is for her, being overpowered by 4 guys, and her parents too, for not asking for help just because they were afraid of one of the guys, who was at that time a low level Yakuza. I know that fearing for your life is an overpowering feeling, but wouldn't any parent give up their lives to save their children?

She would probably be the only person who i would really respect even after death. Even though i don't know her at all, but i'm really affected that she died under the hands of 4 assholes who don't even treat her as a human being after 44 days which would really feel like 44 lifetimes to her.

I'm not doing this post to gain attention to my blog or whatsoever. Like i said i really respect her alot, i just wanted everyone who read to know that there exists 4 assholes who abused their strength and manpower over a 16 year old high school girl, which i find is extremely cowardly and way too abusive of their natural strength.

Junko Furuta, rest in peace. Even though it could be really long since your death, i hope that my well wishes for your afterlife or for your reincarnation will reach you, no matter where you are. I hope that you'll be able to live happily ever after. I really do.

P.S, This is coming from a person who enjoys gore and in a sense, has a really really twisted mind with a really distasteful sense of humor.

Now i have to deal with learning and playing the song, Taion, properly. All the positive energy in the world, please come to me.

2011-01-08T08:52:00.000-08:00

I should probably make a 'To-Buy-List' for this month..right before CNY starts. Gotta get stuff now before CNY to make sure my CNY $ is used to buy proper stuff.

I should probably get:

-Dunlop guitar picks, lots and lots of them. Ok maybe 10. About $8 total since one costs $0.80.

-A new earring. Don't like sticking to ear sticks (lol) and the earring that they used to poke me ear. Maybe i'll get something engraved on the new one. I don't know how much this cost, someone enlighten me.

-3 Sets of D'Addario gauge 10 strings..to make sure i don't have to keep going out to buy when i need them changed. Approx $9 each set, so about $18.

-One more strap locking system and a strap, costs about $30 + $8. $38 for these.

Yeah that's basically it. I don't wanna spend too much cause i got no $ left..I hath decided that CNY money, no matter how much i get, will be used to buy the classical guitar. I probably need one more guitar stand and my room's almost out of space.

I think Casanova is showing on Ch5 now, wanted to buy the vcd, but i ultimately forgot. I don't really feel like watching now though.

I started this, +1bpm thingy 3 days ago, starting from 125 bpm, to make sure i play the guitar clean. Speaking of which i just changed the strings and i really hate the process, and my hand sweats easily so my fingers keep losing grip on the GBE strings. Don't like.

Ok i'm just talking nonsense. -.-

2011-01-04T18:30:00.000-08:00

Hello to all aliens, time travellers, espers, and humans..happy belated new year :D

So i just woke up and i'm listening to some Bach. I can't get back to sleep anyways so i guess i'll just stay up till my music lesson..i don't even recall myself falling asleep -.-

Yosh, on to business...ok there's no business..

Life has been just, Sailor moon and guitar and me. Those who're reading, should really really watch Sailor moon again! It doesn't matter whether the animation quality is good or bad, what really matters is that it'll definitely bring a smile to you, and especially if you liked Sailor moon when you were a kiddo :D I've only reccommended K-ON!(!), The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, and Sailor moon to people who actually read my blog, so you should know that if i reccommended it, it's definitely worth your time..HAHA (That long list of anime is gonna get wayyyyy longer once i've finished the entire Sailor moon series! 2 more seasons to go :P)

Guitar wise, i'm not very satisfied. Firstly swee lee (Their company don't deserve to get that capital letter S and L from me) sold me a piece of junk..ok actually it was not all that bad. They didn't even specify, as in double confirm with us that we're getting the display model. The pickup wirings had some problem. I didn't even need to open that thing up to know..not that i'm a pro at these stuff but it's pretty much common knowledge..and there's fret buzzing. Worst part: they told me they don't fix fret buzz cause it's classed under guitar modification. What in the name of flying pancakes (?) is that..i mean seriously couldn't have they like offer to exchange the damned guitar. Service 1/10, for the fact that they bothered with the pickup wiring..I swear not to ever buy a guitar from swee lee ever again.

So i had to spend another $80 to get that fret buzzing fixed at Guitar Workshop Singapore. Can't say that i'm not happy that the guitar will finally be fixed by (hopefully) this week. I'm only unhappy about that $80..i could've saved some more to get a $200+ classical guitar (To play flamenco. No, to learn how to play flamenco.) And i'm finally gonna get a strap lock..which costs $30 but it's well worth it.

Sorry for the long rant about guitars, i just couldn't really bring myself to not rant about swee lee -.-

(This isn't related to the post, but i feel like i'm some accomplished book writer, listening to classical music with tea by my side and typing away on the keyboard first thing in the morning.)

Let's see, what's next..ok this could've been a little abrupt considering that this would well be like halfway through the post. I'm really glad we had that conversation..i don't know but it feels like there's almost nothing that we couldn't talk about. I don't know but that's just what i felt. I may be wrong about it but..i don't know. Heh.
Everything happens for a reason. Though i really kinda regret what i did the first time i met you, but since that's all in the past, i shan't comment on it anymore. Let the flying crows bring the unhappiness away. HAHA.
I don't really know what to say actually. It could be a bit over the top and since i've said most of it when we had our conversation, i shan't post it here. As long as you know what i'm trying to bring across, it's all good :)
Ok i forgot what i wanted to type..OH yes, to the person concerned, tell me when you're getting married. HAHA. I'll probably feel left out cause i don't know any of your friends, just gimme a chair and i'll sit at the corner. LOL, but that's all some 500 years later, so i guess i'll wait till 499 years later before talking about it. HAHA
Oh and talking about secondary school life was nice too. I thought i'll only have the chance to reminisce about it when i'm 600 years old, but i guess i'm already that old to enjoy thinking about it so much. It's a good feeling. Never want to forget but i probably will in 681 years time.

P.S, no japanese girlfriend for me. Don't want don't like. HAHA

Haha, next topic!

Ok this is really just my for my own typing pleasure, so it's really not worth reading..

There's just so many things i want to buy right now. A classical guitar (cheap ones of course), Digitech Whammy Pedal which probably costs about $700 (-.-), more guitar straps and one more set of Strap locks, some 3 sets of guitar strings, 3 gauge 10 and 3 gauge 12, alot more Dunlop sharp picks, a distortion pedal which would probably cost about $300, more mangas (but not until after i've read finish an entire pile that i have not read), the ENTIRE Sailor moon DVD set, The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya and K-ON!(!) DVD set too (and the movies), if possible an apple lappy/desktop for editing, an amp head, a decent microphone for recording, a decent camera so that i don't feel inferior when i want to take pictures, more Bach CDs, sleeping aids (definitely need them sleeping aids!), an electronic drumset along with headphones so that i don't disturb my neighbour with an acoustic drumset (:P), and a whole lot more things that would be weird to mention, mostly anime figurines and cushions and pillows and posters and wallpapers and cups and clocks and keychains and soft toys and clothes and hoodies and *mind explodes*. I want the X japan score sheets with tabs, versailles score sheets with tabs, Hizaki's signature guitar, hide's signature guitar, installing a killswitch on my guitar, buying a scalloped guitar neck, buying parts to build my own guitar, Herman Li's signature model, the red Ibanez S5470F, Gibson SG standard series, Fender Jazz and Precision bass, and i really don't wanna list out everything. It's probably too much..but this list is for my entire life. HAHA (MORE to be added)

Ok i think i'm going way out of topic. Don't you guys hate cooking shows? Never fails to make you hungry, especially if it's in the middle of the night. It's like, they do some fried chicken or some grilled salmon and you suddenly have a craving for that, but you can't order Mac or get it at that point of time. Cooking shows in the middle of the night are evil. Especially the Rachael Ray show at 5 in the morning it's like *jaw drop*. Ok i'm only talking about this cause there's a cooking show about a guy visiting random grandmothers and learning how to cook their dishes. I slept before 5 yesterday so i didn't watch the Rachael Ray show..i don't even know if there is!

CNY is approaching, money's gonna come in and depending on the amount, i already planned what to spend it on.

< $100: Mangas, guitar strings and picks, and save up the rest.
$100-$200: Mangas, guitar strings and picks, a set of strap locks, straps, save up the rest.
$200-$300: A NEW CLASSICAL GUITAR!
>$300: HEH, impossible.

I'm not sure if you guys know but i only read mangas which have only one book. So don't ask me if i read naruto or bleach or one piece. I pick only Shojo comics, and nothing about fighting..more about romance and love. OH and i really wanna write a book/draw a manga! Of course, all my works, i've never completed. I can't get motivated enough to continue after writing only 2 pages on microsoft word! Namely, the starting and the ending of the entire story. I'm quite shocked at the ending myself. It's probably not meant for human eyes, and the entire story is just sick and twisted. More of a gore fest and needlessly well described rape scene (i know what you're all thinking, and i'm truly sorry) than a love that went overboard. Maybe i should start on an entirely new book..not to mention my english has been on the decline since 700 years ago..but i guess it'll all work out.....right?

OK i think i shall end this here. More topics, but i'll leave those for the next few posts :D

2010-12-18T10:45:00.001-08:00

*facepalms at society*

2010-12-14T08:57:00.001-08:00

J-Rock band huh, never thought i'll be in one. Hopefully i'm accepted by the others!

2010-12-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

As we get older, our friends get lesser.

2010-12-04T08:30:00.000-08:00

While others are out there falling in and out of love, having endless but mindless fun with their friends, going to school to waste their life away, i'll stay home and practice practice practice. How much fun can life get? I'm not being sacarstic by the way. :)

2010-12-03T15:02:00.000-08:00

Direction? NEOCLASSICAL.

2010-11-28T02:34:00.000-08:00

Ok i owned myself pretty badly this time.

I just hope that things will go back to before. Who doesn't wish that things will go back to before? When everyone's wishing for the same thing, you know it'll never come true. That's a bad sign right there.

Well, i played my cards, let's see how this turns out then..

2010-11-24T12:31:00.000-08:00

I am feeling downright crappy right now, after wasting an entire set of strings. Not because of the damned strings, it's because of some other things. I guess the appropriate word is melancholic.

No mood left at all.

2010-11-19T08:38:00.000-08:00

I'm just overthinking :)

2010-11-15T08:31:00.000-08:00

AFAX Day 2..

Woke up at 6.50 a.m, and i realized i woke up a little too early..brushed up and stare into blank space until about 7.20 then i went out. The queue was really short as compared to Day 1, so i queued up. Then i realized i was in the wrong queue. Can't blame me for that! LOL, it was at the same place where the ticket queue is on Day 1! So i got my ticket at the front (there was nobody buying tickets. There's no queue for the tickets at all..) and once i got my tickets, the queue to enter the place (Yes, that long one) started moving. I went to the back and GOODNESS the queue EXTENDED TILL THE NEXT CONVENTION HALL! AND IT WAS ALL THE WAY TO THE BACK, THE END OF THE QUEUE! So blah blah blah and i got in.

Inside there was yet another queue, to go into the main stage. When the queue started moving into the stage, i cut queue..HAHA. Nobody noticed anyways..it was that chaotic, and i finally got into the Main stage area, and i even managed to get a seat! Thanks goodness for the chaos. The hosts came out, but they don't matter. :P

IT WAS FINALLY TIME FOR THE LONG AWAITED MOVIE SCREENING. I can safely say that it's the best movie of the year for me. The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya is really, really good! 100/10 from me (Y) I shan't talk about the movie, go watch it for yourself. HAHA.

After the movie is the Regional Cosplay Championship 2010. The judges were Kaname and Aira from japan, Alodia from Phillippines, Clive from Singapore, and a Canon high ranking staff whose name i don't bother remembering :P The teams that made it were Malaysia, Phillippines, Indonesia, Thailand and Singapore. Out of all their cosplays, i would cast my vote for Japan, because all of them fail when compared to the judges. HAHA. Especially Aira..she's really pretty in person! Really really really :D

Next was, if i'm not wrong, a special appearance by angela, May'n, and Scandal, promoting the I Love Anisong concert Side B. It's really just them appearing, answering a few questions asked by the hosts.

I pretty much camped at the Main stage area from 9 till about 4+ i guess. Went to Mac for early dinner with Zach, and went back to the festival area after that..haha!

The festival area is pretty much the same as Day 1, so refer to that post i guess? The only difference is that most of the things were sold out. The booth selling the $100 stainless steel swords and wooden swords were COMPLETELY sold out. I ain't exaggerating when i said completely. Not a single sword is left, even the broken ones were sold out near the end of the day.

There were more cosplayers on Day 2, but i still feel that Day 1 has the best cosplayer! She's that Haruhi i saw on Day 1. Best cosplay for normal festival goers (Y) AND I FINALLY SAW PEOPLE DANCING TO HARE HARE YUKAI! Although there's only 3 dancers and they kinda ruined the dance but it's ok, since it's the only Hare Hare Yukai for the festival :) Oh there were more Mios on Day 2 too, but they all fail :)

Ok, so for Day 2 i bought 2 more figma figurines, a young Haruhi Suzumiya and a high school Haruhi Suzumiya (has ponytail hairstyle, SAIKO! (YYYYY)). I also bought a Mio plushie! You can insert batteries so when you clap, her head'll move from side to side. This is the 2nd best buy for me for both days :) The BEST buy of the ENTIRE FESTIVAL WAS THE 3 CUSHIONS! 2 from The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya (Yuki Nagato and long haired Haruhi), and 1 from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (Normal Haruhi). I swear if i had more money i would buy the pillows too -.- . The 3rd best buy was the Yuki Nagato 3D poster from The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya. Ok, so most of the stuff i bought from the entire festival was from Haruhi Suzumiya. Why? CAUSE MOST OF THE OTHER STUFF I WANTED WAS SOLD OUT. The Mio handphone strap was gone, the K-ON! mug was gone, the Mayoi Neko Overrun shirt was gone, the wooden swords were gone. Frankly speaking there's really very little K-ON! stuff. HOPE FOR MORE NEXT YEAR!

So after i'd run out of money, it was photo taking time :) Photos can be found in ancient quality on my Facebook. More pictures can also be found on Zach's facebook, and they're of better quality cause his friend lent him a hell of a camera. Tch.

Before i went back, the floor below the festival was filled with cosplayers, posing for pictures. There's Sailor Moon, Naruto, Umineko no Naku Koro ni, Fate/Stay Night and more. Snapped the Sailor Moon and Umineko no Naku Koro ni, and i'm outta there.

IF, and only IF, i can find something to cosplay, i'll go there cosplaying as some character next year. No joke. (Y) Who wants to cosplay as well?!

Ok i guess that's about it for Day 2. Hopefully i can have more money by next year's AFA. See you guys there next year :P Best memory (Y)

2010-11-13T02:37:00.000-08:00

AFAX DAY 1

P.S, I'm sorry that there's no pictures to back this post up, but the REALLY good part of AFAX starts tomorrow, the Regional Cosplay Competition! Therefore i shall bring my camera for tomorrow.
E.P.S. (-.-)

First thing anyone would notice would be the queue..the ticket queue is so damn long! Took awhile before i finally got my $15 ticket (I didn't even go into the main stage area today -.-) So at about 11+, i finally stepped into my first ever Anime Festival. My debut!~

Alright the place was wayyyy too congested. I can barely move around without knocking into somebody every 10 steps. So my very first event that i stayed on to look was the Anisong preliminaries. It's an Anisong (Anime Song) singing competition! A really small one though..haha! If i'm not wrong, the first contestant sang Shangri La by angela, the second contestant sang My Love is a Stapler from K-ON!, and 3 out of the remaining 4 contestants sang songs from vocaloid i think. (Hatsune Miku is extremely popular in Singapore, and most girls cosplay as her!) I'm really only interested in Shangri La and My Love is a Stapler, so i got bored pretty fast.. :P

So i looked through the windows of the Atelier Royale Butler Cafe, and goodness, it is totally the same as what you see in an anime. (Zenzen) So i went on to look at the Moe Moe Kyun Maid Cafe, and I AM SO GLAD THAT I NEVER WANTED TO STEP FOOT IN THAT PLACE. It's really not because of their looks or anything, i mean, nothing negative. It'll just be awkward to go in. No joke.

The entire festival area is really just like a night market. Figurines, trading cards, more figurines, a little bit of doujins, anime related merchandise and stuff like that. The most eye-catching one was the sale of katanas (or whatever you call it) from Bleach. It is a life size replica if i'm not mistaken. The blades are then split into 2 types, wooden blades and stainless steel blades. The wooden one costs $30, it's so cheap that EVERYWHERE you go, every corner you turn, you'll see people carrying the same katana. It's that popular and cheap. LOL. The stainless steel ones are wayyyyy better, but it costs $100. The blade don't cut though, but i'm sure the tip of the blade can be abit, pokey. I was really tempted to buy that, but after lifting the katana up, it was too light for me, so i skipped it. Luckily.

Cosplayers are everywhere, no no wait, Hatsune Mikus are everywhere. Yeah. I've seen Vocaloids, Luffy and Shanks from One Piece, a few characters from Hitman reborn, Star wars Stormtroopers and Queen Amidala, Final Fantasy 13 characters, Snow White, Pikachus, Mario, Sebastian from Kuroshitsuji, a few others which i totally couldn't recognize, a few others whom i've missed out/forgotten, about 2 Mios and 1 yui from K-ON!, and lastly, ONLY ONE HARUHI SUZUMIYA. WHY ONLY 1 HARUHI SUZUMIYA?! But hey, she's really pretty, and she captures Haruhi's character well in photographs, so, quality over quantity i guess! She gets a 90/100 score from me (Y)

I circled the festival area more than thrice, i bought a bunch of stuff, and that wasn't enough! I got Mio figurine ($50), Mio Keychain ($8), Tsuruya Figurine ($40), The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya's Shirt ($29), a Yuki Nagato 3D Poster ($29), a Haruhi Suzumiya 108 pieces Jigsaw puzzle ($7), and a Haruhi Suzumiya paper bag (FREE). That's about all i could get before i ran out of money. Like i said, this wasn't enough! I wanted K-ON! mugs, Mayoi Neko Overrun Shirts, K-ON! handphone straps, Haruhi Suzumiya handphone straps, Haruhi Suzumiya Cushions, and omgzwtfxbbq! I'm gonna bring more money tomorrow. Hopefully i can get most of it..ALL THE BEST TO ME! Oh yeah i'm also gonna upload the pictures of the stuff i bought into facebook. I will take more pictures for tomorrow's festival, and the Regional Cosplay Competition! Look out for it :P

2010-10-29T12:25:00.000-07:00

Who would've thought..? Well it's pretty unexpected, can't do much about it. Surprising twist of fate..

2010-10-24T07:21:00.000-07:00

I'm not qualified to love anyone.

2010-10-13T03:26:00.000-07:00

Hello aliens, time travelers, and espers..i am back. No, i've never left -.-

So recently i've just finished the ENTIRE series of an anime called Major. It's about baseball! It's cool, and it is already finished so you guys don't have to worry about waiting..but good luck if you're gonna watch it, it's at least 100 episodes with megavideo on most of them :P

I've also been reading up on alot of occult stuff, things like magick and tarots and astral projection..i'm willing to give magick a try, but sadly, unless i get my own apartment, i wouldn't be able to do that. As for tarots, i don't know the EXACT place to get them in singapore, guess i gotta scout around more. Astral projection is fun, but i keep getting stuck at a certain part. Takes a hell lot of practice!

I've also recently quit school. (Yay) Now all i gotta do is wait for the NS letter to come, do a few things here and there and i'm in :)

My phone screwed up about a week ago. Please send me a message with your name..i'll try my best to remember to save those contacts into my SIM card instead of the phone..

Dinner now, be back soon :)

2010-09-03T13:17:00.000-07:00

All righty, i'm prepared to start training for NS soon! Cause i'm not gonna study for my theory tests. So if i retain, i'm gonna go NS next year, i'm not studying anymore. I'm sick and tired of studying. I'm very very sure that my calling in life is music, and i'm willing to give up most of whatever i have just to do it. I mean it..

I'm watching a whole lot of animes now, otaku much! Romance animes are really bad, but i can't stop myself from watching. I don't mean the anime being bad, but it really makes me feel real bad about life..sadly, your other half can never be found by literally bumping into each other!

So i guess that's it for now? I don't know what to type already..

2010-08-19T00:22:00.000-07:00

It is good to have good dreams, i was having real good dreams for the past few days, BUT, before good things actually happen, i woke up..i seriously hate this.

Anyway i really wonder, let's say that 2012 really happens. Will you want be with your family, or your other half?

2010-08-17T09:17:00.000-07:00

I really don't know how to type out whatever that is on my mind, all i tried, sounds too weird, or something. I guess after that discussion just now, i don't know, really. I don't want everything to end all over again..oh well, now you know -.-

Also, i feel like i might die anytime, like seriously..had a really bad headache yesterday night, the kind where you literally feel like banging your head on the wall, but of course i didn't..i was sweating like there's no tomorrow in an aircon room with the fan turned on..my blanket was literally warm when i felt it. Spontaneous human combustion much? haha! Oh and my eyes, hopefully it's due to overstrain or something, cause it really hurts when i look diagonally up. I'm going blind! Hope not. I also have a big ulcer that's at least, 1cm wide? Around there..and i have my flute exams coming in about a week! And it's on the same day as my ITE's final exam! Right after the YOG hols!

Maybe i should prepare to go NS or something already....

2010-08-09T01:39:00.000-07:00

I am totally entranced by Dante Sonata recently. I think it'll be my only motivation to start learning piano, even though i already planned on learning..but i need a piano!

So, i don't really care whether its national day or not, really. I only care for the fact that IT'S A PUBLIC HOLIDAY. Which means that there's no school. Which means that i can sleep like, 5+ 6+ in the morning, and wake up at 4+++++++ in the evening, and that is cool.

I'm still waiting for my guitar, that's for sure. I just realized it's barely been 2 months? The guy said that it'll take 3-6 months? You get the idea.......i'm totally drained from waiting. Especially when i'm gonna get a new Amp and depending on the Amp i get, i might need some Overdrive and Distortion pedals, of course i'm planning to get a Wah pedal and a locking strap when i go collect the guitar..so yeah, i'm waiting for so many things -.-

2010-08-05T09:08:00.000-07:00

EDIT: i realized its not safe to post about whatever that was here before. Singapore is not a country for these stuffs, be it legal or illegal, so i'm just gonna delete all of it.

2010-08-02T08:07:00.000-07:00

finally i'm willing to update. been lazy for too long.

i really need to go jogging soon..haven't been playing basketball since....eons ago! and i need to train for napfa also... -.-

i'm not really practicing for my grade 8 exam too -.- and my practical assessment 3 for networking is also coming in about 2-3 days? and i'm still pretty much blur about everything..maybe i'm not cut out for computer stuff at all :P but still, it's an interesting topic, but that kinda 'interesting' is different from music. music is something i can never do without :D (but it doesn't change the fact that i'm lazy anyway :P)

i'm still waiting for my guitar. it's taking LOOOOOONNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG to reach..hope the ship or plane or whatever that's carrying it don't get bombed or something -.- if terrorists attacked the thing it was in, i'll definitely sign on for NS. lol.

headache now, so i guess i'm off to sleep. nights guys, sweetest dreams to You.

2010-07-28T11:17:00.000-07:00

hey guys, i'm hungry :D

the wait for my guitar is seriously killing me, it's taking forever to arrive! hurry up and come already -.- i need you. so that i can finally make my debut on youtube or something. well guys, make a guess which song i'm gonna debut with :P

so its pretty boring nowadays. dragonboat later and blah blah blah, i'm so gonna die for japanese language class and my music lesson tomorrow, cause dragonboating is fierce. haha.

nothing much to update now so yeah. off to sleep for now. nights all, and sweetest dreams especially to you. [you know who you are if you're reading this :) ]

P.S, in case you are wondering, i guess all i can say is, i'm still here. i'm not moving on but i'm not backing down either. :D so that when you look back at least i'm there.

2010-07-21T10:08:00.000-07:00

hey ninja readers, how's it going? :)

it's been awhile, i guess. i'm pretty much screwed up for school work, even though all my tests and stuff like that are EXTREMELY easy, and i really mean it. our teacher just gave us the answer for 50% of the overall test score for the test on monday. oh and though it's extremely easy, not all of us did well. cause we're all playing CS in class and all..hard to face it but yeah, CS is tempting..

so i've not touched a basketball for a long long time. i'm thinking of joining volleyball as an additional CCA, hopefully it doesn't clash with anything, though it's really kinda weird to join at such weird timing. i mean, it's already been awhile since school started..

oh yes, my K-ON!! has finally finished downloading. bye all. K-ON!! above anything else right now! :P

P.S, overall, life's been pretty boring but it is officially time to get busy! grade 8 exams at the end of august! it's time to practice practice practice. ciao.

2010-07-16T00:08:00.000-07:00

because of one stupid dream, my mood is ruined.
f.

2010-07-12T18:16:00.000-07:00

i typed a whole bunch of words and it disappeared.

2010-07-05T04:47:00.000-07:00

now that school's reopened, it feels weird not to have my guitar by me whenever i need it. it's like, during the holidays my guitar was right beside me almost the entire time! i never realized until today though.

the new campus, sucks. big time. the computer was so bad, i'm gonna start bringing my own laptop. the internet was super slow. worse than Unity's one. THEY DON'T EVEN HAVE IE8!!! but overall the new campus was more of a shopping center to me rather than a campus.

oh yeah, i've been watching Primetime Morning alot these days, due to the fact that i'm nocturnal. and i don't know if it's good or bad, but hey, i'm kinda addicted to it. :P

alright, off to sleep. i need more sleep, cause i can't get to sleep yesterday. -.- good night everyone.

2010-06-28T04:00:00.000-07:00

*short update*

i hate the World Cup cause it's overrated.

i have already become a no lifer.

school's gonna start, i think.

lul.

2010-06-17T11:08:00.000-07:00

eons since i updated cause i've got nothing better to update.

(i'm already stuck here -.-)

i can't think of anything to post -.-

badminton yesterday was fine i guess? and that's about it for yesterday?

erm, yeah, blog hop-ed and all, i really don't know what to type. someone please give me a topic or something.

oh yeah K-ON!! was great, as always been rewatching the series over and over just to pass time while waiting for the next episode..and i'm kinda supposed to read the K-ON! manga that i've waited like, 6 months for it? but well, it's in chinese, so yeah, could not bring myself to read it unless i really got like, nothing better to do..

anyway just a random thought, the air is somehow way fresher when you're single, no? but haha, it's something many people willingly pass up on, cause well, the feeling of loving and being loved is somehow better. i'm guessing that subconsciously, humans prefer pain afterall. :P

oh now i have a ton of things to post about. how wonderful, but i'm gonna stop here.

2010-05-30T09:17:00.000-07:00

yo.

you really think
there's gonna be
some secret text
that i don't want
people to read here?
HA!
:P

so i'm finally back to writing my book. oh wait, writing my story. i don't think it's capable of evolving into a book..

(for those who don't know anything about this, :P)

i was looking through what i'd written. there was only 1 page, 1 page only! and just for that page, i had refined it over and over and over and over..as for why i had stopped writing, was because what i'd written was unsatisfactory, and therefore i decided to take a break from trying to squeeze ideas out of my brain..

after so many months of break (i totally forgot about it), i read it again today. i grinned, almost on the verge of laughing. there was so many errors that i couldn't possibly have noticed just by refining when it just came out from the oven(LOL). i guess giving time to let it cool was the right thing to do, but i guess the time i took was enough to cause it to freeze itself -.-

oh yeah, the story is totally m18, HAHA. not that it's based on sexual stuff but there's sexual references, and of course, GORE. it's what i plan to base my story around anyway. it's gonna be horror (non-supernatural kind), romance, gore (i guess), slice of life, type of story i guess. am wondering what kinda sick ideas i'm gonna have popping up in my mind -.- i've always like violence and gore if you guys didn't know. i'm a fan of gory movies, like SAW or Friday the 13th just to name a FEW.

2010-05-26T01:35:00.000-07:00

yo. long time no update..

life's been pretty slackish i guess, school's pretty slackish too. everything's slackish! but i like :D

random stuff:
so i watch k-on, and i like Mio over the rest of the characters, she's kinda weird i guess? mature but she's really a scaredy cat..even the simplest things scares her, like erm, people talking about scary stuffs?! LOL

then i watched The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, and of course, Haruhi Suzumiya's my favourite character. i'm sure most people prefer Asahina Mikuru, cause she's the perfect 'moe' character, but not me. HAHA, Haruhi, too, is weird in a sense that she always talk about weird stuff, has a weird attitude, a weird personality, she's just weird..

2 of my most favourite anime, and my favourite characters are all weird people. so does that mean i like weird girls? 0.0 LOLLLLLLLLLL

so yeah, i've been an otaku since the start of may, up till now. been watching K-ON!!, and rewatching K-ON! and The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. downloaded The Seven Samurais but i never got a chance to watch it. most of my life is about anime now, although a small part of it is dedicated to Devil May Cry 4 on the PS3. it's really a good game, and shouldn't be missed especially if you've played DMC 1, 2, or 3. facebook's pretty boring, CS is also getting more boring due to the over-changing of maps. IT'S LIKE, EVERY 5 MINUTES, THE MAP'LL CHANGE. AND IT'S NOT EVEN AN OFFICIAL CS MAP!!! fy_poolday, Arctic School (is it?), those unofficial cs maps are driving me crazy. people can never stick to just 1 map for at least 45 min i guess..

oh yeah and school holidays are coming! finally can get my ear pierced -.- SCHOOL HOLIDAYS FASTER COME!

2010-05-18T08:56:00.000-07:00

FINALLY I'M DONE! haha, now for the update...

erm, i'm actually not sure what to update..i've finished chloe's belated (2 weeks and 2 days, sorry!) birthday present..and that's about it for the past few days i guess? haha..

oh yeah, i also took some sort of test from WDA..there's a compo section and hey, the compo i wrote was actually better than the one that i submitted for my Os! am i unlucky, or should i be happy that my english improved? i wonder..

my attention was brought away from this blogpost for like, 20 min. i just realized i haven't finished posting but hey, i forgot what i wanted to post..HAHA

2010-05-03T06:55:00.000-07:00

so yeah, training's today and i guess it's worse than i thought. not the training, but my stamina..oh well, i guess that's coupled with weird people in the team..
oh and i forgot to eat dinner again haha. (Y)

anyway, sorry chloe i gotta put your birthday present making on hold today. haha, too tired for now..sorry!

hm, i realized my post is getting shorter..but guys! go listen to K-ON!!'s opening and ending songs. it's called GO! GO! MANIAC!! and Listen!! respectively. available on youtube now :D IMHO Listen!! is wayyyyyyy nicer than GO! GO! MANIAC!! (MIO!!!!!!!!) haha, i think yui's cutesy voice is overkill in the GO! GO! MANIAC!!, and i personally like yoko hikasa's (Mio's voice actress) voice better. so, go Mio! :D

i didn't wanna walk there, but i ended up walking past fairfield methodist secondary school instead..brings back memories..

2010-04-30T09:36:00.000-07:00

when fate doesn't decree something, and yet you force your harsh will on it, you know what happens. fate will turn against you. things, go wrong. everything, goes wrong.

when it's not meant to be, it's not. i guess that's one lesson i have to learn. trying too much, is bad. doing too much too, is bad.

so i guess, i'll just wait for things to start moving before i do anything. i'm guessing that this'll work for me. i'm gonna try.

but anyway, happy birthday chloe :D have a wonderful 365 days.

2010-04-28T08:42:00.000-07:00

there can be no love, when there is no pain.
there can be no pain, when there is no feeling.
there can be no feeling, when there is no life.

random, lol.

an overpowering feeling came over me just seconds before i decided to post..it's familiar. i've felt it before. maybe i'll just describe it as..a strong disturbance in the force..LOL, sorry that's the closest. -.-

don't know what's coming over me. haha, perhaps i'm being influenced too much by Iron Man by Black Sabbath. totally don't feel like going to school tomorrow..lol.

school sucks, because it has lousy computers. internet was down today, the lab sheets we do are crap. it doesn't work at all, whatever we're supposed to do. even the teacher took almost the entire lesson to figure out how to complete the lab sheet.

time for me to hide..

2010-04-26T10:31:00.000-07:00

people are flipping the pages while i'm stuck on strumming the guitar..

the above is just a random sentence really. unless of course you wanna go on and think too far and perhaps associate it with me not moving on in life..

been long since i updated isn't it? school's been good while basketball training was, erm, bad for me i guess..but well it's all in the past (Y)

OH YEAH i just realized that my school is right beside fairfield methodist! isn't it kinda slow that i realized it only now -.- i wonder how clone is doing..been ages since i talked to her..CLONE! i wish you all the best for your Os! (doesn't matter whether you've seen this or not, i'll still wish you all the best..haha :D)

*warning* rant ahead *warning*

anyway, it's a bit ironic i guess, but i really hate educated adults. they're so..i don't know what to say about them. haha. it's been long since i felt like a canned sardine, and i wasn't exactly happy about it either. crazy office lady in her 40s or 50s i guess, squeezed right into the already crowded train. of course she managed to get in, because all the other commuters were literally being pushed. THE TRAIN WAS SO DAMN PACKED, AND SHE STILL CAME IN AND SAY, (if i recall correctly) "Every morning it's like this. (i guess it meant the train being so damn crowded. it's freaking 7.35 AM! *PEAK HOUR*) There are still so much space left..*i forgot this part*..so inconsrete." before you pick out this typo, there is no typos (LOL), she actually said "inconsrete". i'm sure you guys know how crowded the train can be. she dare say that it's not that there's no space, it's just that we don't want to move. seriously, i felt like arguing with her..but i can't cause i'm in ITE uniform. stereotyping is common in singapore.

so please please pleaseeeee, don't ever be like her once you guys grow up. LOL

*end of rant*

so yeah, after someone told me to update my blog with a longer post, and since i also have the same idea, might as well just get on with it. writing this post is NOT easy..i realized how much my standard of english has dropped..i realized that i've not made attempts at writing poetry anymore. LOL. so i guess i'll just stop here for today. i'm guessing this post is not well done at all. sorry for serving a rare post. LOL

2010-04-12T02:29:00.001-07:00

will be working hard for this one year to get my certification..my course ain't bad at all. (Y)

2010-04-03T10:15:00.000-07:00

it's way better to not talk.

2010-03-15T07:05:00.000-07:00

didn't make it into NAFA. haha..it's ITE time. well at least i got the course i wanted, so it's ok.

2010-03-06T09:08:00.000-08:00

i didn't make it, but i'm gonna do my best in october.

2010-03-04T20:49:00.000-08:00

whoa. been long since i updated..

well, there's only one thing for me to say now....

PLEASE LET ME PASS THE SELECTION!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-22T11:41:00.000-08:00

i. am. so. sorry..

2010-02-07T02:15:00.000-08:00

maybe i really shouldn't have been online that day..

2010-01-28T05:59:00.000-08:00

i found Juliet, but i'm not Romeo.

2010-01-27T04:00:00.000-08:00

evasion..

2010-01-26T04:13:00.000-08:00

and now all that's left is a song.

2010-01-19T09:27:00.000-08:00

yes, i just realized i ain't cut out for relationships and should most probably stay single for my entire life! i really mean it.

i mean, i don't know, some of you may say that i haven't found 'the one' yet but hey, actually, i can't think of anything to argue that, just take it as erm, i have a hunch? haha. it's probably for the better that i stay single anyway, for everyone's sake. LOL.

yeah but anyway, it's a sad pool day yesterday. formless!

2010-01-06T06:28:00.000-08:00

the best way to forget about someone you love is to love another. however it is difficult to love another while you love that certain someone. ergo it is difficult to forget about someone you love. but then again it's also easy to fall in love with someone. so it should be easy to love another. which also means it should be easy to forget about that certain someone. however that's not the case, cause it's difficult. however, looking deeper, all solutions take time, unless you commit suicide which is stupid. ergo time is needed. however there are some things which you just can't forget. ergo no matter how much time you take, it is useless. so, shit happens.

no link. i'm too bored.

2010-01-02T06:47:00.000-08:00

it's ok. it's all ok. i can take it, i can.

2009-12-28T09:44:00.000-08:00

i feel so fail.

2009-12-28T00:54:00.000-08:00

i hate this world, cause it rains practically everyday. how the hell am i supposed to go out like this..

i hate dreams, for they are the opposite of reality. 'oh shit' never fails to appear in my head after a good dream i had everytime. funny thing is, i've never had a nightmare for quite some time.

i hate the year 2009, but luckily for me, it is ending very soon. it's been a year of madness, totally shit. goodbye 2009 in a few days time, i won't miss you, or maybe i will..

i guess that's all i wanna say. a riddle for anyone who reads this:

Q.How can a heart that has died love again?
A.No, it can't. duh. lol.

2009-12-18T21:05:00.000-08:00

that, was, such, a, f***ed, up, dream.

2009-12-17T07:36:00.000-08:00

i feel like some no life geeky nerd staring at the computer the entire day without doing anything worth while and all..my 'book' that i TRIED to write, i find it a little weird looking back at the twisted storyline i thought of, i can almost confirm i'm psychopathic. wow. i created an abomination, cool. (to think i'm actually really planning to send it as a draft to some publishing company. i guess they'll put me behind bars for writing things like those.) but well, until i get a laptop, i guess i won't be doing any writing for now..

anyway guys, do check out the game Dragon Age Origins, it's really worth buying. it's a game very similar to WOW, KOTOR2, and LOTR combined.and the greatest thing is all 3 of em' are EPIC. which makes this game 3x as EPIC! it's definitely worth the money *thumbs up*

2009-12-10T04:17:00.000-08:00

SEA games on ch5 now, they really have an awful audio system. fail.

and, 1999 they said it as 'nati-nati-naine', or maybe it's just the audio that sucked so bad.

so many things coming up, well actually only 2, another is unconfirmed. everyone's so busy working..i'm one of the only few rotting at home LOL.

2009-12-05T10:07:00.000-08:00

rotting very much at home these days. no one is free..so no basketball..........

but well what can i do, just rot more, ahahas..

oh yeah yeah, shit happens. my hands are tied, can't do nothing about it..LOL
what am i saying..i'm so bored out of my mind that i'm typing random stuffs.

2009-11-26T11:38:00.000-08:00

well well well well well well..

2009-11-23T11:18:00.000-08:00

after looking back at my old blogposts, i feel the need to kill myself.

2009-11-23T09:45:00.000-08:00

ho-li-days are boring. LG hasn't give me a reply, i probably wouldn't get the job. i'm just gonna slack at home and all.

currently listening to That thing you do!, brings back tons of memories. a pity there ain't gonna be a dec camp. remembering how we stayed up through the night to think of a dance for this, training so hard for fancy drill and all. what can i say..

i really don't know how to continue already. .....

2009-11-20T15:35:00.000-08:00

prom's over.
i may love you, but i'm not gonna go after you. i'm gonna just treat you as my normal friend ok?
don't worry..

OVERNIGHT at K-BOX! more like playing pool the entire night. spent a whole bunch of $$$ and just came back not too long ago..that was satisfactory. prom was pretty normal i guess. maybe i'll update more later, i can't think of anything to say now.

2009-11-18T06:28:00.000-08:00

can something that's been destroyed, when rebuilt, ever be the same again even though it has the same name given?

2009-11-17T04:19:00.000-08:00

i don't even think we'll be friends after this anymore.

it's all my fault.

and things will most likely remain as they are right now.

i guess this time it's really the final goodbye.

2009-11-15T07:30:00.000-08:00

Os have been over for some time now..so many things i wanna do..

Japanese language class
Guitar class
Bass class
Kendo lessons
C programming language class
Javascript class
Basketball training

and quite a few which i forgot...where the heck do i get the $ for all these? and time?!..

come on LG, hire me!

2009-11-02T11:22:00.000-08:00

been eons since i updated, i guess. news flash!

Science Practical
Status : Screwed
Comments : NIL

English Paper 1
Status : !@#$ed
Comments : I could write better when i'm still in primary school.

English Paper 2
Status : Marking (D-U-H)
Comments : Not too bad i guess.

Mathematics
Status : Semi-screwed i think.
Comments : Don't want to comment on it..

SS
Status : 1/4 screwed i think.
Comments : Done it with a zombie like attitude.

Chem
Status : Totally screwed
Comments : ARGH

so that's all the papers i've taken so far. life's been pretty bad recently i guess. the only exam that i feel like i can get a distinction would be my grade 5 theory. i checked once, spotted careless mistakes. i checked again, more careless mistakes. i checked the third time, i could almost confirm it's error free..

oh yeah, i finally got my bass guitar. (love it) it is so super cool. guess the color, correct answer will get 5 points free in the next 1v1 basketball match against me. *while stock last!* yeah, at first i loved the elec. guitar. now, i am so damn sure that bass is where i should be heading. of course not forgetting my flute..

so that's basically about it i guess. oh yeah one last thing...................................see you guys next update.

2009-10-21T10:05:00.000-07:00

now i'm beginning to doubt my ability to do well for english.

2009-10-14T12:08:00.000-07:00

it's happening, all over again. why?

my Os are gonna be screwed.

2009-10-09T01:57:00.000-07:00

graduated..i have measurements on me now..

graduated test tubes. get it? nevermind.

graduation ceremony was..i don't know, pretty normal i guess. today is the day to have fun and well, back to studying after that(you must be like thinking, wth. but it has to be done. unfortunately.).

i really, don't wanna lose contact with all my friends now. but i guess gaining and losing something is part of life. i used to tell people to accept changes, since we can't really do anything to stop it. it ain't easy but i've gotta try. it was never easy to let go of something more important than yourself anyway.

love is like a, erm, some creature that sinks their razor sharp teeth deep into your flesh and into your bones, only letting go after it has sucked out every single drop of blood in you. so loving is painful, but most of us can't live without love. be it parental love, boy-girl love, whatever. if you get too attached, you can never rid yourself of it.

saying that, all of us willingly dwell into it anyway so i guessed i've just wasted your time.

2009-10-07T01:10:00.000-07:00

alright fine, i'm NOT WORTH to be your son. you guys are forever right ok?! always doing the right things, alright?! SORRY FOR NOT BEING UNDERSTANDING THEN.

2009-10-01T01:04:00.001-07:00

21 days to Os..
30 days to grade 5 music theory..

luckily they don't clash..

2009-09-30T06:31:00.000-07:00

how i wished i agreed to quitting school at that time.

2009-09-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

i still have a longing for your memory..

2009-09-23T06:50:00.000-07:00

oh yeah, recently i got onto a bus with a murderer(lol?). he, well, didn't turn on the damned air con. it was SUPER STUFFY inside. everyone(most of them i guess), was sweating. i felt the lack of oxygen.

lol.

2009-09-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

i can't play basketball well already. something's wrong with my left ankle. i can't move my leg how i want it most of the time. this sucks..

2009-09-19T23:10:00.000-07:00

i started running into the night,
to find the truth in me.

2009-09-17T04:39:00.000-07:00

Add me @ GracelessKurenai@hotmail.com..

anyway, the week is almost over. i couldn't get myself to study. so my plan for now..

1 week 1 subject. i only have 4 subjects left so that should be ok i guess..

'well my life's pretty much messed up right now..' <-- no way i'm gonna use this..it's too standard. i'll use this instead:

life sucks.

2009-09-14T03:30:00.000-07:00

Allow me to explain GracelessKurenai..

Grace
1. elegance or beauty of form, manner, motion, or action.
2. a pleasing or attractive quality or endowment.

therefore Graceless =
1. WITHOUT elegance or beauty of form, manner, motion, or action.
2. WITHOUT a pleasing or attractive quality or endowment.

Kurenai
Crimson or Deep red in japanese.
I'm referencing this to the color of blood.

it make sense right? blood isn't elegant nor pleasing. therefore GracelessKurenai. UngracefulKurenai just sounds wrong.

2009-09-13T02:42:00.000-07:00

Alright, since the holidays, wait no..the extra lessons week has ended, time to start studying..

2009-09-07T03:16:00.000-07:00

i'm falling deeper.

2009-09-05T09:51:00.000-07:00

chapter one, still half done..inspiration lost.

this sucks.

2009-09-02T09:53:00.000-07:00

Chapter 1, half done. Plenty more to go.

2009-09-02T08:50:00.000-07:00

INSPIRATION, hopefully not a short lived one..

2009-08-31T21:57:00.000-07:00

i've got too many things i wanna chase.

2009-08-23T09:24:00.000-07:00

depressing but,

i've never had faith in the world we live in.

it's a total mess anyway.